yes, finally some time to blog, my attachement kind of came to a standstill, no i did not get fired, im having a christmas break.. apparently from today to lets see next tuesday, wow i suppose they are great in some ways, but they are kinna late in they pay, till now im still broke because they haven paied me yet, but im sure they will just matter of time. prob i should start charging them interest for this kinna crap. And im working on my website now, once its ready i will post it up for everyone to see how sick the site is, haha apparently.
and for thoes who have sat in ma ride, yes the breaks are working fine already.. the whole car has recovered, sometimes machines can have flu too!
well lifes getting boring for me, i have no life, yes indulging in self pity, its such a weird thing that selfpity is actually a form of comfort and indulgence when its actually such a negitive thing, of cos all this are nothing compared to the millions of people out that suffering each day in war torn countries, okay i think im getting alittle out of point here, but who cares its my blog, =0)
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HEY ITS UPDATE TIME finally, so lets there isnt much.. accept im having attachement now.. and working in a pub, so buzy so short of cash... so desprate for money, ha. what to do im hardworking simple as that, obviously a ego statement, anyways have to take time to bow down to my loyal supporter haha, no updates still so supportive of my blog, inspires me to blog more ha, but i have no friends nothing interesting... so what is there to blog about.. "oh i went to work, work was fun.. yaya " yawn no one wants to hear that.. its like making me fall asleep even typing it out. oh come let me try fill up the space, ah.. go watch without a paddle, great funny arse show, haha do go watch it unless ur some conservative nun living in the last century, which i very much doubt so,well there will be more movie reviews if i get time to watch more shows =)
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went to the gym today... got my body worked out again... hmm i think i need to go to the gym at least 2 times a week, cause doing it once a week not much improvements really, prob 2 times will be good... well i feel fit now and of cos all of us will grow if we work out, thats if there is the right method and all.. well thats all about today, prob tomorrow my day will be more interesting... and prob not as well im not really sure.. i feel useless .
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another bike i love since i cant afford a car, i mean there are really gorgeous cars arould like the lamborghini.. but i think i will never be able to afford that unless im fated to be rich in future and filled with loads of money where i dont know where else to spend it but buy fancy and nice cars like the lamborghini..ah ok /knocks myself back from dreamland. oh back to my ktm, i mean its one fancy transport as well, sit high up above the rest, and u get to cut through the traffic jam like it doesnt exist. so i suppose its got the best of both worlds. i have such a passion for motor vehicles, the rpm... just stepping on the pedel of the accelerator or turning by using the throttle in a motorbike just gives me the acceptional high, that i want to do it over and over again, its like a need to go fast, a need to feel the trill and to be able to take urself to speeds unreachable by normal human..maybe its just a guys thing, who doesnt want to have a car, or rather which guy dont want to , we have our own dreams, if u ask me who to pick.. a sexy lamborghini or a girl, its a hard choice. but if i really love the girl and she really loves me back, i will give anything up no matter the cost, because i believe its hard to come by, but if its just a choice between a girl and a lamb, you would have known i will pick the car, the car of my dreams.. takes my breath away, oh yes it does.
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ktm, *speechless
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what a boring night as i sit here thinking abt what i should do with my life, yes i feel so empty inside pls someone tell me what i ought to do..bang my head against the wall?.. or should i just count sheeps till i rot... oh just tell me ..
wat is love, is there a meaning in it, or maybe i should just admit that i was wrong to think that divorce should never existed. i always thought that marrages would work out if u try hard enuff, during old days our grandparents dint have a choice, yet it is now that when we are fill with choices that we see the climb in divorce rates. have i been wrong all this while.... maybe i should not be so selfish... bringing pain and sorrow to people ard me.. all for my own selfish need to have love. i feel lost and incomplete, i pray things will turn out different from the past.. i rest all my little tiny bits of hope that love is what i see it to be, wishing for nothing more.. just love. i hate myself for not giving enuff... i hate myself for not being good enuff... i hate myself for being me.
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today is going to be a boring day i predict, but its good to stay at home... well my one week holidays are here... one whole week, but still have to go to sch for make up classes on tues weds and thursdays, so wat kind of term break is that..but its okay going to sch is good, cause other then being at home and going to sch theres nothing else much to do, so at least theres some variation.. well and of cos going to gym for at least once a week. people say they can gather more from me from my blog then from chatting with me, i suppose thats true... maybe its different when i chat.. .or when i talk or even when i type, i agree everyone is somewat different when they uses different medium, which is weird... is it you, or are they yous, each medium got its own ways of expressing itself, some lacking in differnt expects, and each having its own unique and special way of communicating, there must be a balance in everything we do, too much of something is never good, and same goes to too little of something...
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its been a few days since i last blog, too occupied with other stuff to blog, i feel weak, must be the intense workouts of weights i have been lifting, well to look on the positive side, my body is getting bigger, soon i will be able to face the beach anyways it has been a up and down few days for me, i dont really have much to feel for anymore, im numb towards myself, i feel joy yes, for a while... extreme sadness, yes for awhile. but one thing i know is that when all these dies down, i am left stripped of my emotions, naked , black like the night sky. im confused, my world that i i thought i live in is crumbling appart. i need a break, a break from this world.
i am ashame of what i am, why must it be like that. i assume i am lucky in my own little ways, i should be contented with who i am, no but i sulk because im not, thats a fact, something that can never be erased,
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i seem to be occupied with things in life lately, for starters i took my bike licence already, so hopefully i will finish it and pass and get my bike, well other then that i have got this self renovation of my room to do, i was thinking of painting the wall purple and some other colour, yet to decide on tho, maybe something that matches that, hmm i dont know whether i will have enought time to do all that and cope with studies, and work at the same time, wow ... seems like loads of stuff aint it? well my first investment was that i bought a giant clock, hopefully thats gonna like wake me up and i mean really wake me up....haha old sch clock with an attitude i would call it. well i dont really know what to write, i feel kinna lost right now... still dazed and all, so for now i will just go take a nap and sleep it off, and till then we will meet again...
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2 in the morning, listening to the sound of the raindrop, wonderful soothing, and the smell of the wind blowing through the window just makes me think of things, but overall its good time to sleep, but im here sitting, reflecting on myself, decide to blog since im up, i watched Irobot, good show, it was a well planned story and there was nice action and stuff to keep me trilled, well you guys should catch it.. recommed, i'll prob give it 4 out of 5 stars. anyways the movie was good, went home and im tired now, haha i think the rain is making me feel like being on the bed and dreaming, alright.. dont worry i wont be dreaming abt you for sure.
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i have so free time at hand to blog, yesterday was tiring, went with my friend to get flowers for his girlfriend, how romantic i would say, and i suppose he has a understanding girlfrield..it isnt abt how the flowers, just knowing that he had the tought to go buy flowers was in itself a sign of love, and you girls should think if u have ever recived flowers, if u have its a wonderful thing. Anyways went to the gym and had a workout, yes i am now stronger and bigger then before, so dont irritate me. ha. well after the workout we had dinner at my friends place, oh and he made s/w for the girlfriend too, and lol i had some taste of it.. apple veg, and cheese and bread what a weird combo, but it taste pretty nice and till now im still very much alive. well anyways was checking out his computer stuff and test them out cause i wanted to get the wireless keyboard and mouse too, its way cool and also a flat screen,.. maybe top it off with a cool webcam that should do the trick. me fully transformed into a computer geek, or hardware freak. well got home and felt tired, that was it end of another day, deadbeat. for today its going to be alittle boring... so i will just retreat into the little hole of mine. of cos still in a depressive mood as all of you would have know, i think its a low point of my life, looking on the brighter side.. i think there would be brighter days adead, as said theres always light at the end of the tunnel, unless of cos im not in the tunnel, maybe a underpass?.. im confused, lost, and staring into emptyness like i have done before, it feels so similar, like i have felt it before, hmm... i did i had feel this kind of depression before, not by will by by situations, hurts and what have you that contribuites to this never ending sorrowful world. tormented by pain, striken with anger.. fustration and arrh. guide me lord, for i know of no where to go...
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Lets see who u could think of./
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it has been a terrible few days for me, tortured and shaken by the warf of the sicken society. disgusted by the very fact i am still embracing this world. yes in fact i am, painfully true, got really pissed at work on tuesday, crap happens when u have to deal with customers filled with action, accusing you of idnoring them, that is just rude and disgusting, oh nvm i have long forgotten abt it. interesting i should say how people can be. lately i have been feeling empty, its like i feel i lost the meaning to be alive , oh so empty. and then i got this lecture abt the whole meaing of existance in one of my elective, now im really confused, is my existance really real, i wonder, i feel theres no goal no aim in life, but now i guess the strongest motivation for me now is to get my bike licence first then get myself a bike. climbing up the social ladder slowly, and then what get a car, a house, get married, have kids, have a stable job, get more power in society, and in the end everyone of us have the visit the coffin at least once. not that u can do it twice, unless u sleep in the coffin for a living. oh nvm, most would brush off death, or not want to think abt it because its the last thing they pray for. i think we should sort of embrace death and know for the fact we are alive. why am i talking much, no one listens anways.
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working at where i am is really beginning to get worst, the most disliked supervisor is fooling ard with the schedue that i think no one is really happy, i mean they try to cut cost, now they cut the amount of working hours and blah blah, one day i think all of the staff there is really gonna give it to him man.. well maybe maybe not, school isnt that bad now, the real stress isnt here yet, but theres this concept drawing class which is driving me crazy, i mean every week we have to hand up something to him to be graded, and half the time i dun understand what hes talking abt because hes so open abt stuff... like too much independence is not nessary a good thing, for example especially when ur doing this. its so open u get kind of lost of what u should think unsure of stuff, but of cos i dont really know what he wants as well, thats the only problem now, for my major concepts its still not yet totally solidified but its getting there so its a good thing =0). thats all for now folks
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well here i am , as usual late blog.. kind of tired yesterday so slept alot.. still wondering wats going on... actually drove down just to eat prata cause i was dam bored, but the prata sucks... should have went to the other adjacent prata store. well oh nevermind so the logic goes... go with the flow, follow the crowd cause they know best....expecially abt food.okay that was like boring yesterday, now to tell you guys abt my long term goal, to get a bike licence and get my bike, oh a yamaha Tw200 how cool is that, not ahbeng,... nor is it poser like a scrambler, well its just so sutiable for me personal needs, but now i got to work for it, save up cash both for learning how to ride and for the downpayment of that bike too, well at least i feel more independent now then i feel i wont need to rely on anyone else just myself, i believe i can survive in this world alone, i need to , i cant be a useless bumb bumbing my life away, i need to be better then that, or at least try to be, well for all of u who dont know what a TW200 is its a dual purpose bike, means it can ride on roads and on mud, so sort of a inbetween of a scrambler and a normal streetbike, i have posted a picture, so enjoy guys, blah.
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My dream bike for now yamaha tw200
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im suprised im blogging so early in the night at 8, why ? the answer is going to astound you even more. i am in class why because i got night classes today doing 3dmax, but what the hack is going on, the lecturer is just teaching by showing us, not even asking us to do anything, how to improve if we just keep looking at him and doing no hands on at all. but at least i can blog because of this well oh nvm wasting my time in class, all the 3dmax guru's are sleeping in class because its so dam boring, i dont admit im a 3d max guru, but well i had been sleeping for awhile just now, so u get the idea eh. haha self ego inflation. i know... but i dun care do i? dislike this lecturer anyways full of rubbish and shows favourtism towards the students and of cos im not one of his favoured pets so i'll just be like that cant be bothered abt him, i suppose in everywhere i go there are sure to find someone that is really disliked by most and stuff.. workplace, sch everywhere haha. .politics my gwad. his voice is making my eyelids heavy, he really needs some teaching skills... trust me.
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Oh yet again the all mighty hardworking cj is in sch early again as usual i suppose, im in school at 9.30 when my class is at 10. for a person who is perpatually late like me. i suppose i have turned over a new leaf and now im in sch early and way early, so here i am in class alone, empty without any distractions or any other forms of life, infront of the edge of techological advancement, which is in front of a Mac G5 for all simple minded people out there, and blogging away like theres no tomorrow. well maybe there is after all. alright school was alright. also working at the same time as usual, i was supprised i actually worked overnight on sunday, so kind of worked for 12 hours non-stop, my i think my legs are going to break. but yes i braved through the storm and im still alive dun worry,hmm but what am i working for, i dun even know myself, i know for one thing that something is driving me to work and work and work, but i cant still make out for sure why im working so hard, anyways i get paied now so i just ttake my time to think about why i work. till then i will still be working. i think working makes me a stronger person then before. thats for sure.
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finally got a chance to blog at school, getting bored and doing practically nothing in sch, why because waiting for the guys to take their photos for their photo card before we can start on some project discussions.plans today are kind of sketchy , and thats not a good thing, its only 2 in the afternoon and i got nothing to do , no work no sch. but good thing was i had work yesterday, really tired ate alot as well, as usual the shit , alright man project time, i'll blog again when theres time on my hand. short and sweet blog i suppose.
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My baby panasonic X70, stunning purple ...sleek.
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yes, this few days it has all been and abt my new baby.. its the all stylish new hp i have. oh packed with cool and sick features with all the stuff you need to make a mark in this society. haha okay that was alittle overboard, but anyways its the hp i like very much, anyways work today was kind of tired, i think its really wearing me down.. all this work and study and all that, but i got to keep this on.. i need to prove to myself im able to take this hardship and not give up just because i cant take it anymore. well i got my new hp to motivate me so its alright. haha well this will be a passing facade, but for now im still living in the joy of having it and tell me.. who can walk ard without a hp, its such a needed product that we live to depend on now. its like wearing a watch or not forgetting to bring ur keys out when you leave ur house. it has reach a point that the house phones becomes redundent because of this wireless and small device. hurray. well come to the 21 century guys.
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havent been blogging for a few days now, cause i have been buzy with some stuff, some stuff that i cant tell you abt or i got to kill you. well other then that things are pretty normal. for one school started already so kinna anticipating the start of stress and about to be embracing it soon, tho its just the first week over and things are still RELAXED but i doubt it would be like that for long. soon i will be all stressed and pulling my hair out. lol. well thats all for now, im kinna in a depressive state right now.. no mood to talk abt anything, well dont worry its not that i want to kill myself or anything, just normal depression everyone else goes through.. so dont fred. lol and there should be something to blog abt since im working tmr, or maybe not since i might be dead tired by then.
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yesterday was a tiring day, was deadbeat because of sch and work at the same time, started sch early.. and got home late. work was quite alright but it just happened i was really tired thats why my working day was no different from the other. my hp also gave in on me yesterday, low batt when i was at school at 10 in the morning...how nice. after i got back home i still had do do some of my own stuff, after that poof, i was in dreamland, most prob i thought i was blogging there or something. anyways saw this yellow lamborghini GALLARDO. yes for thoes who dont know, if ur rich and have nothing better to do with ur wealth.. simply fork out prob ard $800,000 and and woot u got ur lambo. and just for the additional of $350,000, u get the Murcielago, hurray.
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almost forgot to blog today before i sleep, my school is starting..and its like 2 plus in the morning and im not sleeping yet, gosh i must sleep haha and besides i got work tmr as well.. work and study how interesting, anyways work today was alright.. alittle buzy tho. and i got asked by our favourate supervisor to get a hair cut. my how much do they pay me to so influence me to get a haircut?.. well they pay peanuts so they can forget abt me cutting my hair. oh nvm abt that, i got my pay for the last month tho, thats really encouraging, yes im got money, but not that rich still. hmm i am a person who is really hard to maintain.. but i guess im alright. well time to get some rest before life in school starts again, end of holidays.-
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dint know what happened to the blog, so i decided that i finish doing my stuff before i start blogging, yesterday was pretty alright, mundane, dint work but i had something to do, so i went scouting for stuff and when im done, when back home and was home all night, doing what i do best, slack. well tmr i got to work again, tho this time i have sch at the same time, study and work at the same time, how interesting.. i must be hard on cash or something, nah i just suppose i dont want to have the feeling of being broke, having nothing to fall back on and stuff. nevermind the work, i wonder how 3rd year is going to be like for me, study... got to get serious abt my work as well, its the final year, its the year when i finally come out successful with a diploma. yes u can see success written all over my forehead, haha yeah right. Well nothing much other then that today, rather boring, maybe tmr will be slightly more interesting or i hope, and for thoes who are reading this right now, and dont know who i am, im the fella who stole the newspaper from ur front porch everyday! haha
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why does the whole fuck'in world think im a flirt, what the fuck is wrong, i got to blame my physical apparence i suppose, maybe i emmit the feeling of being a flirt, or maybe im sometimes too careless with my words.. i dont know, but gosh how do i prove people wrong?... maybe i should start wearing geek glasses, and hmm have a normal hair cut and lets see.. ah ha.. anti social attitude. oh nah fuck it, im not changing for nobody, who the fuck gives a dam abt it, enuff said, cant be bothered anymore.
Work today was terrible, got so much stuff to attend to, have to serve drinks, and walk around non-stop, theres just too much to do on saturday nights, its a killer for sure. looking on the bright side, i suppose i have to endure some hardship, im a man. tomorrow sunday, off day yes... nah i got stuff to do even if i wasnt working. but it isnt that bad cause at least i dont get told wat to do. oh how sad life is. yes i am again going to mention abt fancy cars, i think working at Mrbean is a occupational hazard for me, i get to see too many fancy cars in a day. its like being in some Temptation island show, oh wat a waste, i should have targeted them and mug them when their in the toliet and steal their gwad dam ride. oh beutiful world, why do u punish me with ur ugly hand..
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yes, here i am again.. blogging in the wee hours of the morning, i think im a owl, stalking the streets at night and being a punk, nah, im just a computer geek behind the keyboard trying to be cool.. oh my finally its past thursday, friday no work.. which is today, finally can take a breather. no more being enslaved to serve everyone. went to work 5 mins early, dont think the supervisor was very happy about it, why cause he looked at the clock and his face went moodless, i think he was hoping to catch me late and give me a good scolding, but ha.. too bad. nvm, oh guess wat some of my friends working there got pay increment, how nice.. from $5 to..... oh yes $5.50 .. haha dun get too excited its not $7 or $8 dollers, but to think abt it .50cents a day will accumulate to alot in a month, my my. but i felt happy for them anyways, ha another cafe opened just across us, so buisness was kinna mundane, till ard 9:30 when buisness started to pick up cause i think those regulars started coming or something, well oh nvm. thats end of work, after wrk... started to see alot impressive cars again, lol, even before i got to work, wow saw this lady driver in a //M3, my gwad, i almost melted.. that is one sick sick car, then after work saw another //M3, and aston martin, i mean wtf, who can afford cars like that.. .what do they sell drugs?. i ponder to myself, when will i ever be able to afford a car like that, maybe someday, or never at all... haha i suppose it can only go one way...either or. maybe i could just content myself in driving them in my dreams for now., hurray. alright, time to go dream abt my car, im so going to spray graffi and dump fat ass exhaust, fancy neon lights, cool mods, and a sleek looking Gt wing, oh my just give me a gwad dam car.
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oh this is a way cool picture, im the one in black, love the style and attitude.
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5:50 am in the morning,, finally i have completed fixing up my blog, i got all the things done, well if u asked which took me the most time, it was the comments link i was trying to fix, the code was terrible, alittle mistake and u dont get the full proper comments blog, i was successfully anyways that's why im finally blogging, i also fixed the tag box, so its nice and big now so everyone can see their tags. That i suppose is all the small changes i have, oh my finally, after ard 5 hours of non stop work on my blog, its finally done, totally spend ard 10 hours on it or so, and hopefully u can see the results of this blog,
well so much abt making the blog look fancy, i am totally dead, had work and got back at 12am, the supervisor wasnt around today, so i would call it more environmentally frendly place to work at, well its only for wednesday so no matter wat have to work every wednesday haha, today was not too bad, had some yummy drinks like banana shake, you know now im so tempted to get a blender myself, just dump the banana in and u get banana shake, wow. Nothing special at work, pretty crowded like always, but im glad im finally earning some $$, positive =) , thats ma day. taking of which i think im kinna addicted to the blog now.. its somewhere i can pour out my feelings and not hide it all inside, ah im still satisfied with my blog, oh wonderful.
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A picture of myself.
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oh finally, after waiting so long i get to blog again, apparently the internet went down because of what i dont know, maybe it was affected by the shut down of power over the west side. weird but true, i think world war 3 is comming.. lol. alright today was a bad bad day man. got scolded a few times a work, oh well human make mistakes..but not that many in one day, i guess im plain unlucky.. was really tired today, have to extend 30 mins more, not enuff staff, what louzy planning from louzy people.. lol ppl who know me you should know what louzy people im talking abt, oh well dont bother me.. just got to face them like 4 hours everytime i work so dont matter. another unlucky thing is i lost my keychain, it just dropped of..what a crappy cheap material keychain is that, my i have learn something dun have too many stuff ard you when ur on the move, it drops of now and then..other then that i reached home pretty soon.. dint have to wait too long for the bus today.. and ah ha saw my sec sch friend today satoshi, changed his hairstyle not too bad i presume..cause nothing can be better then mine.ha just kidding,. thats all abt my boring life, well for all thoes people who want to know,... yes i did this blog myself, impressed?.. dont be.. just be in awe.. well soo much for showing off for one day, till i blog again. =P
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This is where the blog will start.
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