went to the gym today... got my body worked out again... hmm i think i need to go to the gym at least 2 times a week, cause doing it once a week not much improvements really, prob 2 times will be good... well i feel fit now and of cos all of us will grow if we work out, thats if there is the right method and all.. well thats all about today, prob tomorrow my day will be more interesting... and prob not as well im not really sure.. i feel useless .
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another bike i love since i cant afford a car, i mean there are really gorgeous cars arould like the lamborghini.. but i think i will never be able to afford that unless im fated to be rich in future and filled with loads of money where i dont know where else to spend it but buy fancy and nice cars like the lamborghini..ah ok /knocks myself back from dreamland. oh back to my ktm, i mean its one fancy transport as well, sit high up above the rest, and u get to cut through the traffic jam like it doesnt exist. so i suppose its got the best of both worlds. i have such a passion for motor vehicles, the rpm... just stepping on the pedel of the accelerator or turning by using the throttle in a motorbike just gives me the acceptional high, that i want to do it over and over again, its like a need to go fast, a need to feel the trill and to be able to take urself to speeds unreachable by normal human..maybe its just a guys thing, who doesnt want to have a car, or rather which guy dont want to , we have our own dreams, if u ask me who to pick.. a sexy lamborghini or a girl, its a hard choice. but if i really love the girl and she really loves me back, i will give anything up no matter the cost, because i believe its hard to come by, but if its just a choice between a girl and a lamb, you would have known i will pick the car, the car of my dreams.. takes my breath away, oh yes it does.
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ktm, *speechless
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what a boring night as i sit here thinking abt what i should do with my life, yes i feel so empty inside pls someone tell me what i ought to do..bang my head against the wall?.. or should i just count sheeps till i rot... oh just tell me ..
wat is love, is there a meaning in it, or maybe i should just admit that i was wrong to think that divorce should never existed. i always thought that marrages would work out if u try hard enuff, during old days our grandparents dint have a choice, yet it is now that when we are fill with choices that we see the climb in divorce rates. have i been wrong all this while.... maybe i should not be so selfish... bringing pain and sorrow to people ard me.. all for my own selfish need to have love. i feel lost and incomplete, i pray things will turn out different from the past.. i rest all my little tiny bits of hope that love is what i see it to be, wishing for nothing more.. just love. i hate myself for not giving enuff... i hate myself for not being good enuff... i hate myself for being me.
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today is going to be a boring day i predict, but its good to stay at home... well my one week holidays are here... one whole week, but still have to go to sch for make up classes on tues weds and thursdays, so wat kind of term break is that..but its okay going to sch is good, cause other then being at home and going to sch theres nothing else much to do, so at least theres some variation.. well and of cos going to gym for at least once a week. people say they can gather more from me from my blog then from chatting with me, i suppose thats true... maybe its different when i chat.. .or when i talk or even when i type, i agree everyone is somewat different when they uses different medium, which is weird... is it you, or are they yous, each medium got its own ways of expressing itself, some lacking in differnt expects, and each having its own unique and special way of communicating, there must be a balance in everything we do, too much of something is never good, and same goes to too little of something...
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its been a few days since i last blog, too occupied with other stuff to blog, i feel weak, must be the intense workouts of weights i have been lifting, well to look on the positive side, my body is getting bigger, soon i will be able to face the beach anyways it has been a up and down few days for me, i dont really have much to feel for anymore, im numb towards myself, i feel joy yes, for a while... extreme sadness, yes for awhile. but one thing i know is that when all these dies down, i am left stripped of my emotions, naked , black like the night sky. im confused, my world that i i thought i live in is crumbling appart. i need a break, a break from this world.
i am ashame of what i am, why must it be like that. i assume i am lucky in my own little ways, i should be contented with who i am, no but i sulk because im not, thats a fact, something that can never be erased,
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i seem to be occupied with things in life lately, for starters i took my bike licence already, so hopefully i will finish it and pass and get my bike, well other then that i have got this self renovation of my room to do, i was thinking of painting the wall purple and some other colour, yet to decide on tho, maybe something that matches that, hmm i dont know whether i will have enought time to do all that and cope with studies, and work at the same time, wow ... seems like loads of stuff aint it? well my first investment was that i bought a giant clock, hopefully thats gonna like wake me up and i mean really wake me up....haha old sch clock with an attitude i would call it. well i dont really know what to write, i feel kinna lost right now... still dazed and all, so for now i will just go take a nap and sleep it off, and till then we will meet again...
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2 in the morning, listening to the sound of the raindrop, wonderful soothing, and the smell of the wind blowing through the window just makes me think of things, but overall its good time to sleep, but im here sitting, reflecting on myself, decide to blog since im up, i watched Irobot, good show, it was a well planned story and there was nice action and stuff to keep me trilled, well you guys should catch it.. recommed, i'll prob give it 4 out of 5 stars. anyways the movie was good, went home and im tired now, haha i think the rain is making me feel like being on the bed and dreaming, alright.. dont worry i wont be dreaming abt you for sure.
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i have so free time at hand to blog, yesterday was tiring, went with my friend to get flowers for his girlfriend, how romantic i would say, and i suppose he has a understanding girlfrield..it isnt abt how the flowers, just knowing that he had the tought to go buy flowers was in itself a sign of love, and you girls should think if u have ever recived flowers, if u have its a wonderful thing. Anyways went to the gym and had a workout, yes i am now stronger and bigger then before, so dont irritate me. ha. well after the workout we had dinner at my friends place, oh and he made s/w for the girlfriend too, and lol i had some taste of it.. apple veg, and cheese and bread what a weird combo, but it taste pretty nice and till now im still very much alive. well anyways was checking out his computer stuff and test them out cause i wanted to get the wireless keyboard and mouse too, its way cool and also a flat screen,.. maybe top it off with a cool webcam that should do the trick. me fully transformed into a computer geek, or hardware freak. well got home and felt tired, that was it end of another day, deadbeat. for today its going to be alittle boring... so i will just retreat into the little hole of mine. of cos still in a depressive mood as all of you would have know, i think its a low point of my life, looking on the brighter side.. i think there would be brighter days adead, as said theres always light at the end of the tunnel, unless of cos im not in the tunnel, maybe a underpass?.. im confused, lost, and staring into emptyness like i have done before, it feels so similar, like i have felt it before, hmm... i did i had feel this kind of depression before, not by will by by situations, hurts and what have you that contribuites to this never ending sorrowful world. tormented by pain, striken with anger.. fustration and arrh. guide me lord, for i know of no where to go...
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